21 Things

1. I’m a helpless romantic.
2. I’m also incredibly cynical. //July 2007: I think this doesn’t apply anymore. Rather candid. And trying to take it one day at a time… Cynicism is what I use to protect myself from my over candidness…
3. I’ve been celibate for ten years as of mid 2008. I say it because it probably influences how I write (on romance, etc.)
4. Sometimes I get incredibly bluesy and dislike being single but as of late, I am strangely at peace with my choice.
5. The biggest pain is when others make me feel as if it’s incredibly dramatic and wrong.
6. I know what I am looking for - in terms of a relationship at least - but I don’t see why I should settle for less than what I am willing to give.
7. I think we all have gifts, special skills that make us important/essential human beings and individuals.
8. I’m still desperately seeking my own special skills and gifts.
9. I want to contribute to this world and make things better and I want to know that my life has a purpose and benefits others than me.
10. Basically, I want/need to make a difference.
11. I’m convinced that to benefit others and society, you have to make yourself strong and resilient first, and I’m currently really focusing on working on that.
12. I strive (I’m not saying I succeed) to take people as they are.
13. I try to not limit people and things by my own perceptions of what they are and what they can be. I doubt I succeed often! But at least I try.
14. I love writing, and when I’m into what I’m sharing (this works for conversations too now that I think about it) I get incredibly emotional and candid.
15. I’ve got a slight issue with multiple personalities (I say… I think… Well, it’s my perception of things!)
16. I’m not trying to prove a point. I adapt to life as it comes. Whatever comes: I’ll deal with it.
17. I have a tendency to be melodramatic.
18. Often with a little time and through a different perspective, I am capable of being very rational though.
19. I get stuck in ruts sometimes. And it may show in my writings. In general, sooner or later, I find my door or window though.
20. I obviously must get something from blogging/sharing. The funny thing is, I am often convinced I am so utterly boring this blog must make for a dull read.
21. I’m opinionated. Stubborn. Don’t like advice. I just love the idea of being heard. I’m still trying to figure out where that comes from.

//July 2007: Added the above thing, and what is below.

//June 2008: modified the list and some stuff below. Tried to eliminate repeats.

Other various useless facts:

I live in Madagascar currently. Yeah. Like the cartoon. And yep, this is partly home.

I work at home - thus the time to fill this up (ir)regularly and surf and what not.

It’s the first time in ages that I can say: I’ve been in the same country for more than 7 years now, and I’m still not planning to move elsewhere. It’s fun in a way not to say: I don’t know what country I’ll live in tomorrow.

I consider that I’ve lived a pretty full life so far, and have experienced some pretty weird stuff. I doubt I’ll talk of most of my anecdotes, but my kids or nephews and nieces will enjoy them someday.

I speak 2 different languages fluently - it’s my job - and one not too horribly.I’ve lived 4-5 years in NYC - from age 12 to 15 - and it’s probably marked me - and shows - in numerous ways.

I adore: rap & hip hop, dancehall, soul, nu soul, reggaeton, salsa, and a few other types of music.

I’m… obviously… very… verbose. Originally, I created this blog for friends, online & offline, and to keep in touch. It’s turned more into an outlet though… Bizarre.

It doesn’t show, but I’m a fairly private person.

I share here or with some people, but I still don’t consider this type of sharing as intimate.

Maybe because I feel many people feel a whole variety of feelings. Most just don’t express it/them like I do. I’m the type who will try to read them in the words and gestures of people.